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Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Guest Designer at Dirty Scraps... Woot Woot!!!

The 3rd challenge at Dirty Scraps was all about Broken relationships!!! I wasn't quite sure what I was going to say was broken so I worked on two layouts!!! Wow Thank you so much Pinky for deciding to feature them both! I am honored!!!My first layout out is titled Broken in this Moment and features a poem I wrote after my 1st miscarriage and is a layout about how I let moments break me and make me withdraw in when I should really try and let go and move forward which I am really trying to do, because I have two beautiful girls who right now deserve their Mom at her very best instead of one who sometimes just feels so broken!!!

My next layout is titled, As Broken As It Gets and is a layout about the brother that I have who is in prison! I wasn't sure if I was going to let this layout go or not but I am came to the conclusion that while you may judge me by the words that come from my heart or by my brothers actions, I am simply just wanting to be free of this heavy heart and this heavy mind and become better at being who I want to be!!!
My journal reads this: This is a picture of my brother and I!!! Yes this is the brother that I have who is in prison! So if you are reading this and you know me, even if you don't know me, me and my family are not defined by my brothers actions! It is what he decided to do in one moment that would put him there! If you are wondering that one moment has nothing to do with me but that one moment would definitely break this relationship and throw all trust out the window! Take note that in no way, shape, or form, do I agree with what he did at all!!! AT ALL!!! I tried to be supportive of my brother though but not the way that you might think!!! I just mean I wouldn't want to be stuck in that place all alone, so I would take the phone calls, the letters, and I would even go visit him a few times which really creeped me out because you have all of these inmates with family and friends all squished together in one room! So this relationship is broken and no matter how hard one might try and get it back it will always remain broken. There will always be a strain or tension there and once you lose trust with somebody it is very hard to get or gain it back, if at all possible! The letters have stopped coming, the calls don't come anymore because somehow my phone started blocking them, and I don't remember the last time I went to visit, so for me this relationship is As Broken As It Gets!!!


  1. Congrats on the GDT Janelle!
    You're truly a gem to even churn out two layouts!!
    Both are equally heart-wrenching and at the same time show how strong you're capable of being.
    Keep them going, I love what you're doing! :)

  2. Hi Janelle, congrats on the guest design spot! Your layouts are fab! xxx Marlene

  3. Awesome job on your layouts! Congrats on being Guest Designer for Dirty Scraps.

  4. Thanks so much from all of you for the very kind words!!! I appreciate them all so much!!!